BACK FROM DE DEADZ

The all caps is unecessary, but yes, I am back and here's what's happening, in case there's someone out there still following this for some reason:

I'm considering picking back up Bad Comics.  Megan Morrow has fallen through the cracks for now and I don't feel like dealing with it while I'm looking for a job.  I'm also trying to find work in photography because it will get me out of the house.  I've started a Soul Silver Nuzlocke and I want to incorporate the written narrative with the Emerald Run comic that I forsook some time back, which requires me to pick that back up again, too.  The positive thing is if I do start updating it again, then C F has to pick his HeartGold run up as well, since that was the deal we made a few years ago.  We'll see if he honors it.  

I'm also trying to get in with a newspaper near home - I feel like I could do journalism, even though I graduated with an art degree.  Some part of me likes the sound of it and getting to collab with people for a living would be more fun than breading chicken.  And it would encourage me to get physically fit.

What's provoked this sudden return?  While I've been struggling with my self-worth and not wanting to put effort into something that always has potential to go south, the death and apparent suicide of Robin Williams was kind of the kickstart that got me going.  See, if what I assume about his life is somewhat true, that even though he had a lot and was very successful, he was still unhappy, and that mounted on itself until he couldn't see the light anymore.  What I didn't realize until the last 24 hours is that I've kind of been in that way.  Not suicidal, but just stuck in a vicious circle where I want to do something, to make a difference, but I don't know how.  I've had three different majors, I graduated with a somewhat vague one, no one told me what I should be doing and the things people suggest are things I don't want to do.  I'm miles away from my friends and often feel forgotten because of it.  So I'm turning back to what I know how to do in the interim as a means to get going again, which is comic-ing for funsies and trying to be a positive impact on people and have some hope and joy while doing it.  I'm not going to care what people think about my work as long as it's making an impact.  


ADHD Version: I'm starting comics again, I've been stuck in a rut but I'm getting out.  No more vicious circles.